the days...

this right here describes my days. school on the computer and reading my bible switch on and off all day pretty much. i'm not sure if i'll do this computer schooling until i graduate or not, but right now for the time being, it's so great. I've never had this time of solitude where i have nothing else to do except learn things and learn things about God. I feel fortunate that i have this time of peace. It has definitely brought good things. 

Tonight was the movie Expelled at church. I'm not sure how i feel about the film itself, it got me in a weird mood tonight though. I remember in 9th grade I just tried to do perfectly in school and I just thought it would be so great to go to a big time school like harvard or something. It still seems so fun to me, i love diligently seeking to know more about subjects i like. I also like when christians put their minds to learning, and get into the parts of this world where there needs to be clear minded people who know what they believe is the solid truth and can stand firm in politics and things. I think that's why i liked the movie Amazing Grace so much.  And I just watched a biography on Joe Biden and suddam hussein(spelling?), they weren't together in the same biography, that would be funny though. 

Babysitting

he told me the story of kids smoking 'wheat' while playing video games.

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Good ol' k.p. And some ice coffee while waiting for christy.

banda..wha

With an unreliable car and 3 boys...only trouble can come from a hiking trip. me, briana, joshua,isaac, and eric went to the jemez, but not a part i've ever been before, it sure was beautiful. anyways...i don't know what to say about life right now other than God's ways are so crazy good and unlike our own and i am a fool to think that I can do things and be satisfied any way else. I have gotten this guilt free peace and things in my life have been dropped out of it and it has been so good. I'm just an open slate i feel... nothing could tie me down. I've come to peace with being patient. And it's good.

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like children

So..you know that line, "you'll understand when you're older?" that grown-ups say to little kids and even teenagers? I think we can all agree that looking back on ourselves as little children, we couldn't possibly understand a lot of the things we understand now. I think it's cool how as a Christian, looking back a year ago, heck even 2 months ago, I didn't understand many things that I understand now. As we grow more and more in reading the bible and spending time with Jesus it's crazy how we are given more wisdom and understanding into God's mysteries and given more discernment. And I love how that it is something kind of unexplainable and mysterious and that we can see within ourselves and know its there and just thank God for giving it to us.

Oh i guess i should explain the picture. It really has nothing to do with anything, except maybe growing up. I just found it. I just admire my brother's thriftiness and not conforming to paying a lot of money to purchase a gown. His painting won 1st place at umd too. I'm so proud of him. If you never knew that I look up to him a lot, well, you do now. He's a great man. 

102.2

i have a fever of 102 now, its aweful, i am too weak to do anything and now my bones are sore from not doing anything i guess. so no matter what i do, im pretty much in pain. I get a head ache just from watching a movie!i feel like a dead person, the easiest thing t do is close my eyes and lay down all day. how lame is this flesh we're in sometimes